Monday, March 19, 2012

Muddled

Holy crap.

Last week was a sad, sad week.

Without going into major detail, this past Saturday was the 8th Anniversary of my step-dad Mike's death. Late on Thursday night, his sister (my aunt) passed away in a very similar manner.

It was surreal, extremely overwhelming, and just sad.

I have to send props out to FD who got a text from me at 9:15pm and was willing to meet me at Starbucks until almost 11:30pm to distract me when he knew that he had to be up at 4am.

More props out to him and a few coworkers when I may or may not have drowned my sorrows in Mirandaritas (look it up) at a secret "we aren't telling anyone else at work that we are here" party on Saturday night. They took care of me and made sure I was ok.

Another set of props goes out to Marianne. She knows why, but I can't say why because.... well, she knows.

All that to say.... I am muddled.

I keep wanting to type things, but they just aren't coming out on the screen.

There are fun things I want to share, but I don't have the heart.

There are serious things I want to share, but I'm not sure a public blog is appropriate.

There are personal things I want to share, but, well, they are personal and I don't want to get my hopes up.

Anyway, I am muddled.

Very muddled.

And, so, I am posting this. Just because I miss blogging, even though I'm so internally conflicted, I don't know what else to blog.

4 comments:

Gina said...

You can always email me, sister. Or text or call for that matter. :)

PaigeR530 said...

Email, text or call if you want to talk. Hugs. Saying prayers

Melissa said...

You can email me too. If you want. Praying for you. So sorry you're going through so much right now. HUGS!

LWLH said...

Thinking of you girl, don't hesitate to hit me up if you need to talk.