This weekend, I was at my friend Meg's house, celebrating her baby's birthday. While I was there, I noticed a picture of us at her wedding in 2004. It was Meg, myself, and our three best friends from high school.
I tried to forget about it. Then, I logged onto my photobucket account for the first time in like a year, while I was trying to upload my non-uploading Evan and Abby videos. In that account were a ton of pictures of me from that same summer and then a year after.
I was shocked at myself. I literally almost didn't recognize myself. It made me embarassed, ashamed, and sad. It also makes me proud, at the same time.
See, the summer of 2005 was roughly a year after my step-dad, Mike, died. I basically spiraled and completely blew up. I've always had weight problems, but it really was out of control. Around the same time as these following photos, I'd finally come out of my depression over his death and was starting to work to lose weight. One day, I just looked at myself and decided I hated being what I was. Here I was, 21 years old, and soooo unhealthy and unhappy. I promised myself that I'd get better and NEVER allow myself to get to that point, again.
It's been a long journey. But, I've slowly lost a bunch of weight over the past 4 years. I'm clearly still working on it, but I have a goal and will eventually achieve it! I honestly can't believe how far I've come.
My ultimate goal is to reach my goal weight by my 10-year reunion. I have just under 2 years.... so, please expect about 2 more years of Weekly Workout Blogs, lol.